#leapfear Day 22 – Angela

I think I might have more images of Angela laughing than not.  Seriously.

Arriving as a bundle of energy, Angela became very still when we started to talk about what this project meant to her.  It is clear that she has thought long and hard about the meaning of fear in her life.  But then when the camera came out, an impish grin and full blown belly laugh all became the norm.

I have no doubt that Angela has confronted fear and kicked its ass.  Or at least cracked it up so much that she could just walk right over it.


What changed that made you realize you were living a life of fear?

I realized I was living a life of fear because I was living vicariously through other people. Ever since I was little, I have always been told that I am mature for my age. But the experiences in which I gained my maturity from were not my own. And what fun is that?! I realized that if I wanted to be my own unique individual, I had to stop fearing the unknown. Up until that point I was playing it safe and as the saying goes, “a ship is safe at harbor, but that’s not what ships are for”. 2016-02-22_0004.jpg
Once you realized that you were living a life in fear, what stopped you from moving forward? What held you back for so long?

Being your own person is scary! It’s so much easier to cling on to everyone around you. Whether that be your family, your friends, or even complete strangers at times. Being motivated to create change is work, and there’s always the chance of failure. Coming across as being fearless and actually being fearless are two very different things.

Once you did take the leap, what did you have to let go of?

I had to let go safety nets, whether they be physically or emotionally. I had distance myself from the people and things that were not allowing me to grow. That being said, it wasn’t just about my surroundings… it was also about myself as a person. I had to dig a little deeper, and actually figure out who I wanted to be from that point on. For me, taking the leap meant that I got to pick who I wanted to be, and not what I had been told to be. I let go of consistency, and welcomed change.
Once you let go, what did you find on the other side that was worth taking the leap?

I found happiness in myself and the world in which I live. It was extremely freeing and I don’t think I would change anything about the way I came to this point. There are some things I wouldn’t want to do again, but I am certainly appreciative of how they shaped me. I gained the confidence to walk this earth knowing that I, along with every other human, is here to contribute something.
What would you tell someone whose fears are still holding them back?

It won’t change over night. You have to be willing to put in the work, and take everything life throws at you with a sense of humour. Something you will always catch me saying, that really captures that attitude, is: “it’s a laugh or cry situation and I’m choosing to laugh”. it’s important to know that you can only have the capability change yourself and your attitudes… and it’s seriously worth it!